On Monday I did not plain to go off like I did but she listened and gave me words of wisdom. This is some of what we talk about
4:09 PM me: Hi yoyo
4:10 PM I went to the doctors today
Jessie: Good and what did they say
10 minutes |
4:21 PM me:
I finally had the guts to ask about what I am. because the 1st thing I
heard I was (Well can't spell it) the 2nd thing was Schizoaffective
then it was bipolar now it is back to Schizoaffective with sign or
something og bipolar
4:23 PM he raised my Seroquel again now I am taking 600MG
4:24 PM Jessie:
Ok....so how do you feel about all that.does it change how you
feel..cuz its just words...what you are is andrea....in all your
glory....you are the same girl we loved yesterday and will love
tomorrow....that's who you are....don't let other ...WORDS....define
you...you my love....are ...ANDREA...
4:26 PM did you need more
4:27 PM me: thank you i sorry I should not layed that down on you like that
love you
4:28 PM Jessie:
No don't be sorry...I knew all of that...voices is schitzofrania....but
that doesn't define who you are to me...and it should not to you either
9 minutes |
4:38 PM me:
I love that it does not bother you because of that but I sorry I hate
me it was being mentally damage that made it were I had to take meds
which one of then cause me to lose my teeth. There was a lot of times
that I did not like myself cause I am stupid but now my teeth are messed
up. I always have Anxiety attacks around people but I can't talk to
anyone with out having one because I can't stop hearing that they are
looking at your teeth my teeth. Jackie wants to hang out some time and
can't because I don't want her to see my teeth
4:41 PM I am tired of feel like this meds are not going to make me like myself I keep taking then because it is better on then off
4:42 PM There is a picture that is very true I am going to send it to you
Jessie:
Andrea..with that kind of thinking...are you telling me that we should
not love keile for being exactly who she is...no you would never think
that right...and someday when keile us going thru some of this...you ate
going to be the only one who will completely understand her..and be
able to be there for her in a way we never could....god made you both
perfect:...you Re you..and we love you just the way you are
6 minutes |
4:49 PM me:
what kelie I can't spell but her and other like her are genuine lot
inside then self keile will have a great life because she has her mom
and you who love her and are going to show her the way! me you taby we
did not
4:50 PM I have to go we are going to get my meds thank you for listen or reading i love you
4:51 PM Jessie: Love you too baby ..you are perfect..don't forget that
me: ty